*By Autumn Cavender*
Have you ever stopped to consider what was running through the minds of people when they first discovered alcohol? What thought processes were responsible for their notion to share this substance with the rest of the world? You’d think these questions would preoccupy people with loved ones entering and exiting 12 step rehab. You may think that if a member of your family was an alcoholic, you’d consider these topics. Even if it was just until you at least had a rational explanation. Or, you could even be looking for someone or something to blame for all of it.
Insane. Bonkers. Stupid. Lazy. Obsessive. Paranoid. Crazy. Weird. Sad. Useless. Lonely. Burden. Dramatic. Awkward. Nervous. Antisocial. Inconvenience. Unbalanced. Needy.
All of these words describe exactly how I think people feel about me. And although everyone around me would strongly object to the fact that I am any of these things, this is ultimately a projection of how I feel about myself. We’ve all heard at least some of these words used to describe someone with a form of mental illness, at one point in our lives. But in reality, it’s just not so black and white.
Hi. My name is Catherine and I suffer from mental illness.